► Sure slept a lot today, something like 15 to 16 hours. I wasn't able to fall asleep Thursday night, seemed to stay wired from the anxiety brought on by being at the mall and that sudden need to go potty. Actually antsy about having to go out Christmas shopping on Monday. Eh, it was a one time thing. Had to be.

Keep telling myself that I'll be fine as long as I don't drink any of that pulpy orange juice the night before.

Regardless, I wasn't able to sleep and spent all yesterday in a groggy daze, jittery and restless. That made sitting at the computer difficult so I spent most of yesterday afternoon and evening in bed watching a little less than a dozen episodes of Criminal Minds on A&E. They were having a marathon. Come midnight I brushed my teeth, put on my sleep mask, and promptly slipped away to slumber land. It's surprising how much the mask can help me sleep.

► The Amazon package with the stuff Dad and I ordered arrived yesterday afternoon at 4:15pm. Give or take.

With the DVDs I've purchased in the past 2 weeks, my To Watch stack is huge again. It doesn't help that in this same time I've again stopped watching DVDs. Gotta get back on track.

What amuses me is that Amazon.ca now uses UPS for delivery, instead of the Canadian company Purolator, as the used to.

► Are Horror Films Supposed To Be Scary Or Fun? - I'd suggest that most modern horror films aren't so much scary, but rather just disgusting.

► Hawkman, Dr. Fate and Stargirl oh my! - Two more pictures were released showing costumes for the upcoming Smallville TV-movie guest starring the Justice Society of America. I'm shocked to see how true to the comics they're being with the costumes. You're impressing me Smallville. That really shocks me.

► A combination of 2 of my favourite things: The Muppets and Queen. My favourite bit? The duet of Beaker and Bobo Bear singing the Galileo section.

The Muppets Bohemian Rhapsody

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Klaus: Your legs are too thin, your hair is too red, you have lips like a cat. You're no good. You give me too much trouble.
Angel: Flattery rolls right off me.
- The Greatest Show on Earth (1952)

Drinking: Tropicana orange juice
Last Watched: Criminal Minds (A&E marathon); Cold Case (single episode)

► Because I'm apparently a 14 year old girl:

Current Books: Showcase Presents House of Mystery Volume 2; Essential Avengers Volume 2; The Mammoth Book of True Hauntings edited by Peter Haining

Current Playlist: none

Current Guilty Pleasure: porn

Current Colour: uh... favourite colour? currently purple

Current Drink: Tropicana orange juice with pulp

Current Food: whole wheat saltines

Current Favourite Show: The Big Bang Theory

Current Wishlist: Captain America's shield (replica); Cavalier King Charles Spaniel puppy; Christopher Reeve Superman doll/statue; my own house; to try that sex thing once

Current Needs: a house of my own and to win the lottery jackpot

Current Triumphs: still alive

Current Bane of My Existence: my nerves; my teeth

Current Celebrity Crush: Taylor Swift

Current Indulgence: porn and DVDs

Current Blessing: still alive & not living in the gutter

Current Slang: my own hodge podge

Current Outfit: black Superman symbol pjama bottoms, grey Canada/red maple leaf T-shirt, grey socks and my worn blue fleece overshirt

Current Excitement: waiting for my Amazon order

Current Mood: tired

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Natalie Teeger: **Monk has a loose tooth after he was abducted by a dentist and his dental hygienist** There's nothing to be afraid of. I'll be with you the whole time. What are the odds of another dentist torturing you?
- Monk (2002 - 2009)

► Sliced the underside of my left middle finger on a piece of plastic earlier. It doesn't really hurt and I only noticed it when I was washing my hands afterward, but I decided to finally open that box of Batman band-aids I bought last year. I just wanted to finally use one of them. Batman! He looks so stern as he valiantly protects my wound from dirt and debris.

► I swear I'm going to go insane. Deana finally decided to join and begin playing Mafia Wars on Facebook. I've been playing it since last spring so I'm her tutor and helper. She's already become obsessed with the game and is calling on my help every few minutes, often to explain things I already have. I'm gonna go bonkers!

► Nice. The Amazon.ca order Dad and I placed yesterday shipped at 12:50 this afternoon. The delivery estimate is tomorrow. It's good to be ordering from within Canada again.

► So much for going easier on DVDs this month. I went out with Dad today and I ended up getting 2 for $12 at Sears, 2 for $20 and a $6 previously-viewed one at Blockbuster, and then tonight Deana went out on an errand and returned with Family Guy Volume 7 for me saying "Merry Christmas". I actually feel a bit guilty about that because she could have gotten the set $10 cheaper at Walmart.

There were a couple of minor notable incidents while out. The first was that I started having a panic attack while at the mall when my stomach, which had been irritated, started acting up and I had to go to the bathroom. Luckily I lasted long enough to make the drive to Dad's place (he needed my help with something there anyway). I think it was the pulpy orange juice I drank before bed last night. This is why I prefer the pulpless juice.

My stomach starts to feel uncomfortable and I need to go to the toilet but I don't know where they are and I start getting freaked thinking I'll be sick and then I have a bad attack and that makes my stomach worse. These obsessive worries and panic attacks are a pain. I seem to be getting more panicky lately.

After the stop at Dad's we went to the small strip mall on Ninth street (nearish my apartment actually). While he went into Subway I went to Blockbuster to look around. It's 2 for $20 on DVDs under $14.99 so I was looking for two. I found 2 I wanted and went to the checkout (after picking that third, previously-viewed, $6 DVD. One of the 2-for-$20 DVDs was the 70s German remake of Nosferatu, which had a sticker price of $9.99. The young guy working rung up my purchases but it came up to over $37 and wouldn't accept the discount. The manager came over, picked up the DVD, looked at the screen, and angerly flipped the DVD hard down on the counter saying it was $19.99. Obviously pissed, she walked back to her other counter. I didn't know what was going to happen as the guy rung up the order again. I volunteered that it was the only copy I had seen. In the end I got the 2 for $20 after all, so yay me!

What's odd is that when I got home I peeled back the price tag on Nosferatu and found that there were 3 stickers. The first says $19.99, but the second says $17.99. This makes me wonder if the price was changed (twice!) but just not properly updated in the system.

What I got:

Sears
► The Punisher (1989; Dolph Lundgren!)
► No Escape (1994)

Blockbuster
► Nosferatu: The Vampire (1979; Nosferatu: Phantom der Nacht, German title)
► Dracula: Dead and Loving It (1995)
► My Name Is Bruce (2007; previously-viewed)

From Deana For Christmas
► Family Guy: Volume 7

I have no money left. Cue angels weeping.

► Just for fun, Supermodel Stephanie Seymour circa 1992:

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Glenn: I'm gonna kill you, Earl. I'm gonna rip off your face and wear it to the Ugly Ball.
Earl Hickey: That's scary and hurtful, Glenn.
- My Name Is Earl (2005 - 2009)

Drinking: water

► That was weird. Just took the garbage out to the curb for tomorrow's pickup. When I looked out the window I didn't see any other bags out front from the other apartments (it's dark). But when I got to the curb there they were... all in the drain ditch at the front of the yard. Weird.

► Funny how sometimes, occasionally, things work. If you recall (and why shouldn't you? my life's minutia is important!) back in September Dad was going to let me order the Complete Black Books britcom set for my birthday. The set is $75 Canadian, usually around $50 on the site, and was on sale for $25. Unfortunately, before I could order it the price jumped back up to over $50.

Cut to last night. I was checking some stuff on Amazon.ca when I saw that the DVD set, in my cart, had decreased again to $25. For a moment I considered calling Dad and asking if I could order it, but I decided I shouldn't bug him. This afternoon, however, Dad called me and asked me to order some Sean Connery and James Garner DVDs for him. He came by and I mentioned the Black Books set dropping down and he said I could order it for myself. Sometimes things just work out.

I was allowed to order a second DVD for around $20 and was going to get Charlie's Angels season 3 (since I can never find it locally and it's still discounted), but in the end I decided to get a book and a double feature DVD. I'm getting:

► The Complete Black Books
► Operation Condor / Operation Condor 2: The Armour Of The Gods (Jackie Chan Double Feature DVD)
► Modern Masters Volume 10: Kevin Maguire (tradepaperback)

► This pulpy orange juice is insanely pulpy. It's like drinking a slushy but without ice. I'm actually going through the jug faster than I usually do with the pulpless juice, mostly cause I keep finding myself more thirsty after drinking it. It seems much more tart.

► SUPERMAN Franchise Finds Lawsuits as Debilitating as Kryptonite and Superman Franchise on Hold - I'm getting tired of hearing that Superman Returns was disappointing since it cost $232 million and only made $391 million. That $232 million amount is including all the failed Superman projects in the 90s and early 2000s including the $20 pay-or-play deal Nicolas Cage got in Tim Burton's mercifully aborted potential freakshow. If they want to reboot the Superman franchise, fine. But I don't think yet another retelling of the origin is at all necessary. Additionally, making the character fresh and exciting is one thing, wanting to completely revise the mythology into something non-Superman is another. They also don't need to go all grim and serious and morbidly Dark Knight on it. They just need to make it bolder and fresher while still staying true to the characters and original material ala Star Trek.*

As I always say, continuity isn't as important as consistency.

* Funny that the man responsible for revitalizing Star Trek, J.J. Abrams, was the one who wrote the Superman: Flyby script that was to have Krypton in civil war and not destroyed, Superman as the long lost king and Messiah of Krypton, and Lex Luthor as a Kryptonian spy working in the US government.

► Movie Posters: The Wolfman, The Book of Eli, Greenberg, Avatar - Those Wolfman posters look awesome! And I still say Avatar looks like Ferngully.

► CBS 'Hypocritical' for Blurring Adam Lambert Kiss - From the article:

'An editor at The Advocate is slamming the CBS "Early Show" for blurring a kiss between Adam Lambert and his male bandmate in a Wednesday segment -- moments before showing unedited footage of Madonna and Britney Spears making out.'

That's easy, in Western society female lesbianism or bisexuality is seen as provocative and exciting, whereas male homosexuality is disturbing and scary. It's a friggin bizarre double standard. Modern culture almost seems to encourage experimentation for girls and women, how many TV shows and movies push the idea of college girls "taking a walk on the bi side". It seems like it's actually cool for girls to proclaim bisexuality, even if it isn't remotely true, to the point that it's now a cliché. Look at the images for clubs where girls are always shown grinding and making out with each other to lure dumb males. There just seems to be a much stronger prejudice against gay men and the media seems to openly encourage while exploiting the eroticism of female pan-sexuality. If a girl comes out as bisexual it seems like it's fine, she's just experimenting and it can increase her image. If a boy comes out as bisexual, he's just in denial and he's really just gay and can't be manly at all.

Gay and bisexual women are exploited as Angelina Jolie like exotics (or empowering ala Xena and Gabrielle), while gay men are only accepted if they're either seemingly asexual or flamboyantly ridiculous (re: Bruno or even Jack from Will & Grace). Queer As Folk never got half of the media slavering as The L Word has. Messed up world.

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Ray Peterson: I'm going to go do something productive. I'm gonna go watch television.
- The 'burbs (1989)

Drinking: Tropicana orange juice (with pulp!)
Eating: granola bar

► Suddenly have an overwhelming hunger for Wendy's burgers. I wonder, would I like it more if I switched from 2 parts ketchup and 1 part mustard, to 2 parts mustard and 1 part ketchup on my burgers? Food for thought.

► I was awake for around 40-42 hours from Sunday afternoon through to this morning. Only managed that fitful 2 hour nap yesterday around noon when my computer was scanning for that malware. I was out of it the rest of the afternoon and evening so I tried going to bed early last night. Not much luck.

It's weird how when you've been awake for a long period of time and your body and mind are exhausted, that you'll hit a point where you also become wired and incapable of relaxing or sleeping. Just laid in bed all night not able to sleep. Ended up watching a lot of late night TV. Oddly, around 6:30am I decided to try sleep again but this time put on my sleep mask. Next thing I remember is waking up just before 5:00pm.

The time machine works again.

► Hey, the Big Bang Theory has it's own Wiki! Neat.

► When I moved into the apartment with my sister over a year ago I saw Two and a Half Men for the first time. She had the show on a lot and I saw quite a few episodes. Honestly, it's not really funny and I think the show should more aptly be renamed Sex and a Sex Sex because that's all it's about. It's just overwhelmingly crass and relentlessly puerile.

That said, they seem to have added a new character (a fiance for Charlie Sheen's character) played by an actress named Jennifer Bini Taylor. I may start watching it now.

      
        


► Full trailer for the upcoming Family Guy: Something, Something, Something, Dark Side direct-to-DVD movie. Yeah, I'm buying it.


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Elvis: Don't make me use my stuff on ya, baby!
- Bubba Ho-tep (2002)

► Kinda jinxed myself in yesterday's post when I said I was feeling unsure of the computer since Friday's worm program got on it. Low and behold I got a trojan this morning just as I was heading to bed. Several hours later, and thanks to an anti-malware program, I think it's gone. Also managed to fix problems caused on Friday with my Firefox and Internet Explorer settings. Thanks be to Dran for the help.

Chief problem right now is that I'm functioning on less than 2 restless hours of sleep this afternoon (while the anti-malware program was scanning) after more than 24 hours awake. I'm all groggy and slightly punchy. I should make myself a couple of jam sandwiches and go to bed.

► Sean Connery Ditches Retirement to Play ... a Skateboarding Veterinarian? - It's an animated movie, and was made 3 or more years ago. He could literally phone in his performance from his toilet at home. Somehow I'm not too excited about this being his big return.

► 'World's tallest model' graces mag - Now that's a tall drink of water. I'm barely conscious. This is the best you get in comments.

She's probably the closest living thing we have to Big Barda or She-Hulk. Well, sorta.

► SDCC 2009 Part 2: Christopher Reeve Superman Doll - How the hell did I miss that this past summer? Want!

  
(Pictures taken from this site.)

► Um...


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Colossus: We can coexist, but only on my terms. You will say you lose your freedom, freedom is an illusion. All you lose is the emotion of pride. To be dominated by me is not as bad for human pride as to be dominated by others of your species.
- Colossus: The Forbin Project (1970)

► Since the worm/virus Friday night, and it following the one I got at the start of October, I'm incredibly nervous each time I start the computer now. Feel like a bomb specialist each time I press the power button, expecting the computer to just explode. More reason for my wanting to get an external hard drive for storage.

At the very least I should burn another updated backup CD of my micro hero superheroine designs. Just to be safe. Not that I've actually worked on any in 2 months. Ah, sad. I should.

► Had a weird dream earlier today. In it I had to shave all the long whiskers off of my forehead. I looked like the Wolf Man. Maybe my subconscious is telling me it's time I cut my hair.



► Went to Walmart briefly with Dad this afternoon, just to pick up a few groceries. I bought a jug of Tropicana orange juice with pulp. It's a distinctly different feeling, drinking a beverage that's semi solid.

The store was packed so I didn't have long to browse. I did, however, sifted through the top of the $5 DVD bin. It was overflowing so I couldn't dig much, which was disappointing since there was some new stuff in there. For example I found a copy of The Terminal which I picked up. Also got Troy (2-disc version) and Stealth, both of which have been in the bin for awhile. Stealth is supposed to be a dumb film, but it has Jessica Biel, and I'd buy that for a dollar. Ok, five dollars.

► typsy_gypsy said she was curious to see what I had in my Amazon wishlist, so I'm posting it. I feel really silly about doing this because I would never expect nor want someone to buy me something from it. Seems really presumptuous and arrogant to me (there's a lot of expensive junk). But still, it might be interesting to take a look into someone's likes and interests. So I present my Amazon.ca (that's the Canadian site) wishlist for intellectual evaluation.

In case you're wondering, I deleted stuff that was no longer in print and added stuff I had in my Amazon.com (American) wishlist and things that have been taking up place in my To Buy Later cart. That's why there's so much new junk in there.

► I can be random:

Derek: you know what I miss? I miss the sticker dispenser that Walmart used to have
Kai: well that was random. It really *IS* tangent day
Derek: everytime I'd go to the store I'd buy an Incredibles sticker when leaving
Derek: I miss that
Kai: You're a six year old, aren't ya? ;)

► Marvel Comics is canceling Ms Marvel's series with issue 50? That sucks. Or it would if I actually bought the comic. Still, she's my favourite Marvel superheroine and it's disappointing to see her lose her series. She's Marvel's best answer to Wonder Woman and they should have pushed her more. Maybe if they didn't write Carol out of the series for a few months replacing her with a villain. Still, I've been wanting to get the tradepaperbacks collecting the series.

► Disgraced and dethroned Miss USA 2009 Carrie Prejean admitted she made 8 masturbation sex tapes. That's just... just... can I watch them? Please?

► I like Katy Perry's boobs. You know I'm not alone.

► So pwetty. :-3 I want one!


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Jacquouille la Fripouille: Don't drink it, Sire! You might turn into a frog, a bat, a goat, or a nun's arse!
Godefroy de Papincourt, Comte de Montmirail: You're right. Drink first!
Jacquouille la Fripouille: Me?
Godefroy de Papincourt, Comte de Montmirail: Let's see if you turn into a nun's arse. If you do, I'll seek revenge.
- Les visiteurs (1993; aka The Visitors)

Drinking: Tropicana orange juice (with pulp)
Last Watched: Disorderly Conduct: Video on Patrol (SpikeTV)

► The aggravation continues. I've been trying to relax from earlier tonight but I'm getting increasingly jittery and frustrated as things seemingly keep conspiring to set me off. I've had at least 3 ranting rages at the computer. Things keep freezing up and LiveJournal taking 10 minutes to accept and load the updated last entry (kept loading to a blank page). My skin is crawling and I keep having random itching all over.

Just need to distract myself (keep rewatching that "Baby Baby Baby" video I posted in the previous entry).

all I've managed to get myself to eat are 2 granola bars.

► I just managed to accidentally kick myself in the testicles, putting my foot up on my stool.

**sigh**

It's just one of those days.

► Edit (2:15am): Talk about compound interest. All the things bothering me tonight and what should happen? I get another one of those self installing worm EXE files that pretends to be an antivirus and takes over the computer system. This one was a lot like the one I got a month and a half ago, but much harder to get around (refusing to allow access to the Task Manager, HijackThis, antivirus programs, or even browsers). Still, Dran was able to talk me through it and using some tricks I think it's gone. But for how long?

Honestly, this on top of earlier, I'm surprised I didn't have a stroke as I went into heightened panic mode. Actually feeling much more relaxed now, with the crisis seemingly averted. Not that I want to jinx it, since I still have a bit of the jitters.

► Menage a 3 - Thursday, November 19, 2009 - I officially believe that Zii's mission is not to help Gary get a girl and be his wingman, but to ensure he never gets laid and to systematically destroy his life completely. Although Gary's obviously demented if he actually wants to get together with Yuki. That girl's nuttier than squirrel turds.

► Finally looked at DC Comics' solicitations for February 2010 (posted on Monday), and boy is Power Girl on a lot of covers that month. Kudos for my gal Karen. Did I miss any?

     

Oh, she's also on the cover of 2 new tradepaperbacks.

 

► Megan Fox Goes Spread Eagle in The New York Times - That'll Save the Newspaper Industry - I suddenly can't form anything but the simplest and dirtiest of thoughts. Me likely a lot... **drools**



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Monty: I must say there's nothing more attractive than tainted youth. Yes, I am indeed a pervert. Does that offend you?
- Waiting... (2005)

Drinking: Tropicana orange juice
Eating: granola bars

► I'm a little pissed off with myself at the moment. Went to make myself supper and decided to open the package of hotdog wieners that I bought on Monday. I have some problems when it comes to food. Because my phobia about becoming sick to my stomach is so strong I worry about things being bad or making me ill. The wieners seemed fine when I bought them, but taking them out of the package they seemed paler than usual. Smelled alright, but the colouring made me worried. Little voice popped up in my head wondering if something was wrong with them. Tried ignoring it but then examining the next wiener, and a couple more I started seeing reddish pink colouring in the end folds I haven't seen before. Most likely this is just food colouring but klaxons start going off in my head and I end up throwing out all the hotdogs because I know there's no way in Hell I'll be able to force myself into eating them because at this point I'm in panic mode.

Fucking pisses me off. Waste of fucking money, and now I'll have to settle for eating fucking jam sandwiches for supper. God dammit.

► Eh... now I feel all jittery and queasy.

► Dean had a doctor's appointment. She's now on sick leave until December 14th. Two and a half months where I can't walk around the apartment naked during the day.

Not that I actually do walk around naked during the day.* I just like knowing I have the option.

* Actually, that's not completely true. If I'm here alone and know no one is coming in soon, after my shower I walk to my room naked instead of putting my pajama bottoms back on. Bit silly to put them on just to walk 10 feet to my room and take them off.

► Fuck You, Penguin - In which the author insults pictures of animals (presumably, with tongue in cheek). Weirdest site I've seen in awhile. Thanks for linking me to it, Dran!

► Hello Kitty Sushi Select - Well, now that's rather disturbing.

► Make The Girl Dance - Baby Baby Baby

Caught the last minute of this French video on MusiquePlus this morning while flipping channels. I have no idea who the group is and have no idea if the girls in the video are part of the group, actually the singers, or if they're just models. All I know is I love this video (really speaks to my nude superheroine loving perverted self).

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Matty: You aren't too smart, are you? I like that in a man.
Ned: What else do you like? Lazy? Ugly? Horny? I got 'em all.
Matty: You don't look lazy.
- Body Heat (1981)

► I have a really bad headache tonight so I don't know how long I'll stay online tonight. This will probably be a short post too.

► This week I've been reading Deana's copy of the Calvin and Hobbes: The Tenth Anniversary Book by Bill Watterson and something in it surprised and confused me. For the record I should point out that the book was published back in 1995. The book is made of of strips that Watterson himself selected and reprinted along with his own observations and insights into them and his creative process. Early in the book he goes on at length about how comic strips are an art form and that no work of art should be dismissed by the medium in which they appear. That there is no high art or low art, simply art. He makes a strong case for the best of comic strips being art, through writing and drawing. All of this I agree with.

But near the end of the book there's a sketch showing Calvin and Hobbes reading and discussing superhero comic books under a tree. Beneath the strip Watterson says, no matter how violent, psychotic and gun totting you make the characters, "...comic books are incredibly stupid."

I think there's something wrong there...

► Regarding Charles Darwin:

Derek: went over to Darwin's page
Derek: and saw that his book On The Origin Of Species was published in 1859
Derek: I thought it was earlier than that
Derek: then noticed it was published Thursday 24 November 1859
Derek: that means the 150th anniversary of one of the most important texts in science is next week
Derek: yet I haven't seen mention of that anniversary anywhere
Dran: Well.... just between you and me, Derek.... most of us think Darwin's a jerk. We pretty much try to sweep him under the rug as much as possible.
Derek: what the-? why couldn't you tell me this BEFORE I got that Sexy Darwin Rocks tattoo!

► Ashley Greene Gets Leggy Hot For Tim Burton - This gal is in Twilight? My interest in seeing the movie just went from 0% to 1%. Ooo lah lah legs!

    

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Peterman: **at the movie theater seeing The English Patient** Elaine, I hope you're watching the clothes, because I can't take my eyes off the passion.
- Seinfeld (1990 - 1998)

► In the rush to expel all the verbal diarrhea in my previous post I forgot to mention that in addition to groceries I did pick up 2 DVDs at Walmart. I had previously said that I've been looking forward to getting the 2-disc Star Trek movie DVD today, but had resigned myself to waiting until the end of the month. Seeing the display stand when we got into the store, and how more than half of the slots were already empty at 11:00am, I decided to just bite the bullet and get the movie. That said, I couldn't rationalize spending $29 on the 2-disc DVD when the $24 single disc was marked down first day/one day only to $17.50. On the back it said the single disc had the director commentary track so that made it easier.

Besides, what do I need with the digital copy of the movie (which is the selling point of the 2-disc)?

Also picked up K-19: The Widowmaker for $6.88 afterward on the way to the checkout line. I haven't seen the movie, but that's never stopped me before. Besides, it's Harrison Ford, my long time favourite, and he plays a Russian submarine commander. That's something I have to see at least once. Seriously, is there any modern movie star more American than Harrison Ford?

► For those following along at home, that's 6 DVDs so far for the month of November. The insanity of mid August through October seems to have abated.

► Lately I keep thinking of updating my Amazon.ca Wishlist and making it public. But then I wonder why? Isn't it a bit presumptuous? Also, where the hell would I even post it? Seems silly and possibly greedy to me.

► Two days ago...

Talison: The most interesting part of that Avatar trailer is when it says, "From the director of Terminator."
Derek: it looks like a CGI version of Ferngully
Talison: Yes, yes it does
Talison: Well stated

► Exclusive: Smallville movie gets a title! - An actual superhero looking superhero costume? I might actually have to watch this when it airs in February.

► I seriously need to cut my hair. I'm starting to look like a Rebel extra from the first Star Wars film.



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Dr. Alex Brulov: My dear girl, you can not keep bumping your head against reality and saying it is not there.
- Spellbound (1945)

Drinking: Tropicana pulpless orange juice
Reading: Calvin and Hobbes: The Tenth Anniversary Book by Bill Watterson

► I've long said that I wished hats would come back into style. Especially fedoras. Last year I mentioned to my father and sister that I've always wanted a fedora and my sister said I should just get one. I pointed out that the problem with that is I don't think I have the courage to walk down the street in my jeans and slacker attire while wearing a fedora. She agreed it might look weird.

► All afternoon my anxiety was really heightened. Honestly surprised I didn't have a panic attack. Started when I woke up this morning feeling dizzy and nervous, worried about going shopping with Dad. I was a bit jittery when we left the apartment and driving downtown and then to Walmart.

    Store Panic
Once in the store (which was unusually packed for a Tuesday morning) I suddenly started feeling my pulse race. This set off my suddenly becoming aware of the arteries in my neck engorging and thumping, mouth drying, face going flush, buzzing feeling of alarm and danger filling my head, and the feeling that the bottom of my stomach suddenly dropped out. I popped 2 antacids at once, chewing on those while slightly wild eyed with an increasing need to throw my shopping cart to the ground, flinging my jacket in the air, and running full force out the building through the sliding glass doors, all while screaming like a banshee. What I did do was pick out a loaf of bread and move on to the cranberry juice.

Relaxed a bit after that, enough so that Dad and I brought my groceries back to the apartment and then went back out to pick up Subway sandwiches for lunch. Expected things to be settled but a few bizarre, and in hindsight stupid, things kept my nerves reeling all afternoon.

    Sister Panic
Chief among them was five minutes after Dad dropped me off Dean called from her cellphone to ask if her doctor had called and left a message. I checked the machine and told her no. Before hanging up I asked her where she was but she kept avoiding answering and just said goodbye and hung up. Knowing she had a doctor's appointment later in the afternoon I started wondering if she had went to the hospital to admit herself. That left 5 hours for me to worry and obsess over her well being and what might be going on. Turns out she was just at a hair salon at the time and didn't hear what I was asking on the phone.

    Super Virus Disease Russian Conspiracy Panic
The other panic inducing things were a link an acquaintance emailed me to a British newspaper article on how the H1N1 Swine Flu bug has mutated with 2 others in Western Ukraine. Supposedly infecting millions and causing panic in the country and fears of it turning into a biblical plague with people coughing and vomiting up the blood from their diseased and decaying lungs in days. Comments from the acquaintance suggesting it's a conspiracy since the major media is ignoring this new super flu.

A brief (I can't stress that enough) search found that the Ukrainian press and government is blowing it out of proportion because it's an election year next year. Oh, and that the area likely has just been subject to the coincidence of 3 different seasonal flues hitting the area at the same time as pneumonia. Fuckin' fear mongers.

While this went on I found a brief mention that WWIII is predicted to begin in one year's time (November 2010). Oh yay. Are we that hard up for the Apocalypse?

Talking with Dran later in the afternoon helped me vent about the stupidity of all this crap.

Edit: My life is a constant struggle between my irrational, panicky, fearful side and my rational, cynical calm side. The above rambles are to show how the 2 play off each other all the time. After all, the underlying purpose of this journal is for me to talk about my life with my nervous disorders.

► Speaking of Apocalypses, NASA explains why all those Dec 21st, 2012 theories are horseshit. Thank you NASA.

► Dad's suggested I just start drinking orange juice with pulp since I keep having a hard time finding the pulpless jugs I like. I'm considering it.

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Quote of the Moment

Hudson: We're all gonna die man.
- Aliens (1986)

Drinking: Tropicana pulpless orange juice

► Weird weather. So mild the last few days. Didn't realize it when my sister and I left the apartment yesterday at noon to go to my brother's. I was wearing a hoodie sweater and my big leather jacket. Ended up not needing them later when I took Charlie outside a few times to do his business.

Charlie really seems to be improving from his parvo bout. He was a completely different dog yesterday then the first time I saw him last Tuesday. He was running, jumping, barking, playing, and whimpering for attention whenever I'd leave the room (the others were working in the bathroom on the renovation). I seemed to be on puppy watch until my sister-in-law got home. That's when he really turned into a little devil, nipping and biting her continuously while playing, and climbing up onto the back of the couch in an attempt to jump over onto the dinner table while we were all eating supper. Several times. Apparently he's part black Lab, part hound (they're not sure what), and part cat.

It was a real relief to see him doing so much better. Although cleaning up a puddle of pee and a pile of poop in the family room made me realize having a puppy in this carpeted apartment wouldn't be a fun job. Still have the scent of puppy poop lingering in my nose.

► Not sure if it's the warm weather or what, but I'm feeling really tired. Went to bed around 11:00pm last night. Actually, it might have been closer to 10:00pm. Anyway, I woke up a few times, but I slept until a little after 11:30am this morning, and still feel tired and my ribs and back have been sore too.

Of course, this might have something to do with crouching on the floor yesterday afternoon to help push the stacked washer and dryers into the cubbyhole in the new bathroom/laundry room at the house. At least my torso wrap/bandage is helping a bit.

► Oh, it turns out my brother lied to me when he told me early last week that they had thrown out the bookcase I lent him before moving out. They still have it in the basement, but are "using it". Guess I will have to settle for buying another one of those crappy cheap Walmart ones.

► Twisted Disney Princessess Art Is Awesome - That Little Mermaid/Ariel picture is going to give me nightmares for awhile.

► Edward Woodward Dead At 79 - I used to watch The Equalizer a lot when I was younger. Occasionally with my grandfather when I was over at their house. That show had such a great intro.


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Quote of the Moment

**Jim, pranking a spying Dwight, pretending he is affected by a bite from a bat**
Jim: Ow!
Karen: What happened?
Jim: That bread on your desk... I just picked it up. It's white hot!
Karen: But, Jim this garlic bread is cold.
Jim: No... it burned me.
- The Office (2005 - ; US version)

Drinking: Tropicana pulpless orange juice
Last Watched: Mad Max Beyond Thunderdome (1985); Serial Mom (1994); Three's Company (2 episodes)

► Actually anxious about going to my brother's house tomorrow, mostly because I'm still worried about the puppy, Charlie. I really shouldn't have read all that stuff about Parvo the other day. I keep thinking about how the germs can live in soil and on surfaces for over a year, in heat and cold. Worried about Bruce now and the neighbour's dog. But they've likely been inoculated against this several times (I know Bruce gets yearly shots).

Just can't help worrying. I love dogs and it saddens me to think of one of them getting fatally sick or suffering.

► Dunno if it's the stress of my nerves or too much time at the computer, but my back is really acting up today. I feel like Quasimodo.

► Just a few more examples of 70s Babe era Margot Kidder. Great legs.

    


► Photoshopped Celebrity Photos - Removing some unsightly flaws (pimples and such) is one thing, but why do they have to make everyone look like blurry, diaphanous ghost people?

► Tampa man jailed after calling 911 for sex - Apparently the guy didn't have anymore minutes left on his cellphone.

"So he called the only number he knew wouldn't cost him anything, 911."

Sounds like it did cost him.

► Has to be more fun than Monopoly:



► George Carlin - Brain Droppings (1997)

What's all this stuff about motivation? I say, if you need motivation, you probably need more than motivation. You probably need chemical intervention or brain surgery. Actually, if you ask me, this country could do with a little less motivation. The people who are causing all the trouble seem highly motivated to me. Serial killers, stock swindlers, drug dealers, Christian Republicans. I'm not sure motivation is always a good thing. You show me a lazy prick who's lying in bed all day, watching tv, only occasionally getting up to piss, and I'll show you a guy who's not causing any trouble.

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Quote of the Moment

Brian Slade: Man is least himself when he talks in his own person... Give him a mask and he'll tell you the truth.
- Velvet Goldmine (1998)

Drinking: Tropicana pulpless orange juice
Eating: extra strength acetaminophen tablets
Reading: The Mammoth Book of True Hauntings edited by Peter Haining

► Called my brother a short while ago to see if there was any news regarding Charlie. He said that Charlie's still at the vet, but that he's finally eating and drinking and now even howling. Which is a decided change from when I saw him on Tuesday night when he wouldn't move (even went being petted) and didn't make any sounds. Officially he was just dehydrated from not eating and drinking. He didn't say why he had gotten that way, but my guess is the stress of going from wherever he first lived, to being abandoned out in the country to staying with the people who found him and then suddenly at yet another strange house (my brother's). Hopefully he'll adjust quickly and be back and the house and active when Dad and I go to help my brother with the bathroom renovation on Sunday.

Regardless, he's on the mend and Darren said he'd call me and let me know when Charlie was home.

Edit (6:25pm): Brother just called. Charlie's home from the animal hospital. Turns out he actually had Parvo, an apparently deadly virus (the symptoms sound particularly disturbing), but they caught it early enough and he's on medication and doing much better. Apparently he's running and bounding around the house now. Glad to hear he's on the mend.

For those interested, here's a picture of Charlie from earlier this week. I had to get it through my sister-in-law's sister's Facebook page, since my sister-in-law unfriended me this past August. Sneaky sneaky.



► From Facebook:

► My Five (Current) Celebrity Crushes:

        
Jennifer Love Hewitt; Taylor Swift; Megan Fox; Katy Perry; Christina Hendricks

► I stumbled onto this yesterday and it amuses me. It's titled "Bearded Clam". Think I want it:



Source website.

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Quote of the Moment

Emilio: I fear you are underestimating the sneakiness, sir.
- Mr. Deeds (2002)

Drinking: water
Finished Reading: Brain Droppings by George Carlin
Last Watched: Community; CSI; The Mentalist;